i will remember you...

i will remember you
will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories

remember the good times that we had
let them slip away from us when things got bad
clearly i first saw you smiling in the sun
wanna feel your warmth upon me
i want to be the one

i will remember you
will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories

i'm so tired that i can't sleep
standing on the edge of something much too deep
it's funny how i feel so much yet cannot say a word
we are screaming inside oh we can't be heard

i will remember you
will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories

so afraid to love you more afraid to lose
clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
where once there was a darkness, a deep and endless night
you gave me everything you had oh you gave me life

i will remember you
will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories

- sarah mclachlan -

let you go

semua sudah selesai. selamat berpisah. jaga dirimu baikbaik. jangan pernah menyerah untuk mimpimu. jangan.

sekarang aku tahu bagaimana melepaskanmu. pergilah. aku sayang sekali padamu...

do what you have to do

what ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...

and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize

that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go

a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

- sarah mclachlan -

27.09.07

terima kasih banyak untuk waktu yang diluangkan hari ini. baikbaik ya dengan dirimu. jangan menyerah untuk menghidupi mimpimu. terjal memang, tapi aku yakin kamu bisa. jangan menyerah ya. tolong. somehow, melihatmu bersemangat membuatku bersemangat pula. sayang sekali padamu...

sent to: you...

lanjut hidup...

saya melanjutkan hidup. saya tidak mau sedih terus. dia memang buta. saya tidak mau lamalama bersedih hanya karena orang buta yang tidak melihat saya di hadapannya dan menganggap apa yang saya rasakan tidak penting sama sekali. lanjut hidup seperti salah seorang sahabat saya bilang.

ika, take a sad song and make it better...

edge a.k.a. mary jane part 2

mungkin diriku bagimu tak ada artinya, oh tapi... kuingin sebaliknya... (atiek cb)

spiderman,
saya ingin sebaliknya. ya saya ingin sebaliknya. mungkin memang saya tidak cukup penting dibandingkan semua yang kamu jalani selama ini. mungkin saya memang tak ada artinya tapi tolong lihat saya. saya membutuhkanmu juga. saya kelelahan. tolong lihat saya juga. sebentar saja. secuil saja.

secuil saja. bisakah?...

cukup adalah cukup

cukup. saya harus bisa mengatakan bahwa semuanya sudah cukup. cukup sesuai kapasitasnya. cukup. saya harus belajar untuk itu. belajar bahwa tidak semua hal seperti apa yg saya mau. bahwa semuanya sudah cukup. bahwa saya harus menerimanya. sekarang berhenti memandang ke belakang. lihat ke depan. lanjutkan hidup. berjalan terus...